I've always fully believed that I can control everything in my life. That I can mold the final outcome of things just by truly believing I can and working my ass off to make it happen.
Yet often things don't happen exactly as I plan. I guess that is why I'm always in such a bad mood and upset. Is this why I'm often so pessimistic because I believe I can but ultimately I know it won't happen haha..
How do I explain all the bad habits I have. Why I eat like a pig and drink like a fish. Is this being in control and enjoying it or ignoring it because I have no control? hmmm..
Or is it because sometimes those in my life cannot control or be allowed to control their lives and then it affects mine. I obviously don't control the will of others or how they feel or what their final decisions is or what may not be their decision.
Maybe my idea of being in control is just flawed and false. Maybe I'm just not making any sense but what I know is that it all fucking sucks.
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I actually fully UNDERSTAND...things don't always turn out no matter how well planned they are. It sucks and frustrating; it's so out of our control!! But you do have control over your state of mind. Be happy, be optimistic. Life is too short not to isn't it?
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